Thursday, October 15, 2009

It's Called "Being Humble"

What's goin on everybody? Today's topic is being written by the Goon in me
For those un familiar with the term, allow me:

Goon: (n) \ˈgün\ - 1: a stupid person 2: a man hired to terrorize or eliminate opponents 3: (Hood Use) One with no future outside of the world of the streets. One who prides himself in being a hooligan with little to no education and with dreams of someday living to see the tender age of 25! (I could go on forever but we'll leave it at that)

So, gettin started. Last December, 5 friends and myself embarked on a little road trip to our states capital, Albany, NY. Why? Glad you asked... you see, my friends and I being men (as much as I hate to admit it) often succumb to the temptations of the flesh. The reason I share that information is because the only reason we were on our way out to Albany was because we were promised a forbidden fruit. That fruit being white girls! Yea Cot Dammit I said it, whatchu gonna do? But yea, one of us who shall forever remain nameless happened to know a young lady who lived in Albany and she said she'd be hangin out with a few friends, so we figured we'd pick up some 'Future Preventers' accept her invitation to come visit and head out. I think we are all adults here, no need for me to go into details passed that point.

But moving on; upon arriving to Albany, after a long ass 2 or so hour trip we learn that the 'Party-like' environment we had traveled for was just 3 girls hangin out. meaning 3 guys would have been left with nothing to do but twirl their fingers and sit in the car. So what did we do? We decided we'd chill anyway and at least spend an evening in Albany for the experience. Shortly after hitting up a bar (where a few white boys politely offered to fight us) we came back and hung out at one of the young ladies house. This is where the night took a turn and where the whole purpose and title of this post begins to make sense.

After only a hour or so of knowing any of us (besides my friend who she knew prior) and 10 minutes after sitting in her room she asks me to get up from the seat I'm sitting in, when I do she lifts the cushion and picks up a sandwich bag wit what seemed to be approx. $2000 in cold hard cash. Now that alone made those of us who saw it think and raise one eyebrow, but it didn't end there. Immediately after, she went into her dresser drawers and got out a bag of Cocaine. You read that correctly, your eyes are not deceiving you, yes Coke! So at this point I'm thinkin she CANNOT be serious. But if you think it ended there, your wrong, she began to count her money in front of us and then when she was done she began to weigh her Coke in front of us. Her room mate's friend then came to the door and gave her some money in exchange for a hit. So it'S obvious she was/is a drug dealer. Now at this point one of my friends texts me and says: "Wtf is goin on in here? These bitches are wildin" I agreed and text'd back, he then text'd me: "Let's get outta here, but first lets rob these bitches." I read the text, looked him in his eyes and gave him the head nod of approval. Never had I been so ready to commit a crime like I was at that moment.

Allow me to explain why I was receiving those texts: You see my fellas and I are not rich, in fact we are almost the opposite, we are aspiring artist who someday will be in a better financial position than we are in now but until then we are still (what we in the hood call) hungry, meaning we are striving and aspiring, and still on a paper chase. So for this broad to "Stunt" (show off what she has and how she gets it) like that in front of us brought the wolves out of us! You see doing something like dangling fresh meat (pause) in front of a pack of Hungry wolves on the hunt is not a great idea, you can get hurt or even worse, you can get eaten right along with that meat.

So once the tension in the room began to rise and we began asking a few more questions the young lady put her money and her drugs away. We decided that the hiest would have been too messy due to last minute planning anyway. Plus lets be honest, not one of us wanted to get locked up in Albany, especially after a situation where its 3 white girls word over the words of 6 black men! So we go back to the car where we begin discussing the situation, wondering if we should run back in the house and slap the shit out of the people in it grab the money and go. But ultimately we decided to turn the car on and come back home.

Now here's my reason for posting this story (especially after so long) you see a few days ago the same thing happened minus the drugs.... another person decided that it was imperative to flash money around, but I won't get into that one. my whole thing is, if and when I have money, and someday when I'm rich, the last thing I want you to know is that I have any money. Even now I hate counting money in public. When did the people of the world forget to just be humble? I being a hungry wolf don't necessarily appreciate you flashing your money in my face, because as humble and as un-phased as I am about those thing; situations like that bring envy out of me and i don't like to feel that way. My boys and I are very complaisant but had we not been that night those girls might have not lived to see the sunrise over their beautiful suburban neighborhood. I say all this only to say this folks: be Humble. If you have money that's great, but there's someone out there with 10 times more money than you and they are not being etiquette-less bastards throwing it around just to be seen in a different light. So i guess that's it for now. later folks

Stay Up and Stay Tuned! and keep your money in your pocket!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

JUST A TEST DRIVE BABE!

LATELY I'VE BEEN IN SITUATIONS WHERE ITS A GUYS VS. GIRLS TOPIC OF DISCUSSION TAKING PLACE: AMONG MANY OTHER THINGS THE TOPIC OF CHEATING COMES UP AND I PERSONALLY HAVE EVEN BEEN ASKED 'WHY DO MEN CHEAT?" WELL I PERSONALLY DON'T BECAUSE I FEEL IF I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND THEN SHE IS GOING TO FILL EACH AND EVERY VOID I FEEL NEEDS TO BE FILLED: SHE WILL BE MY GIRL, MY BOO, MY SLIDE, MY JUMPOFF, MY MISTRESS AND OTHER WOMAN ALL BALLED UP IN ONE. BUT FROM WHAT I KNOW BEING THE PROUD OWNER OF A PENIS, THE REASON MEN CHEAT IS AS FOLLOWS:
A MAN CHEATS ON HIS SIGNIFICANT OTHER BECAUSE HIS SIGNIFICANT OTHER IS NOTHING MORE THAN A SECURITY BLANKET, A SAFE HAVEN, A GUARANTEE THAT HE WILL HAVE SOMETHING TO COME HOME TO IN THE EVENT THAT HIS BOO, SLIDE, JUMPOFF, MISTRESS AND OR OTHER WOMAN IS NOT AVAILABLE AT THE TIME THE HE FEELS THEY WILL BE NEEDED. SO HIS GIRL IS JUST THE ONE HE LOVES BUT JUST SO HAPPENS TO KEEP AROUND AND IS IRREPLACEABLE UNLIKE THE OTHERS!

SO TO HELP FURTHER EXPLAIN THIS POINT I CAME UP WITH AN ANALOGY YESTERDAY AND IT GOES A LIL SOMETHING LIKE THIS:
A MAN DRIVES A HONDA AND HE IS CONTENT WITH IT, BUT SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY HE GETS OFFERS TO DRIVE A BENZ, A FERRARI, A LAMBORGHINI, OR EVEN A MASERATI, SO NATURALLY ANY MAN IN HIS RIGHT MIND IS NOT GONNA TURN DOWN THAT OFFER! IT WOULD BE CRAZY TO SAY: "A LAMBO, NAH IM GOOD, I GOT MY HONDA!" LMAO... SO YOU SEE HE'S GONNA TAKE THAT RIDE, BUT OF COURSE HE HAS TO GIVE THAT CAR BACK TO ITS RIGHTFUL OWNER SOMEDAY, SO WHEN THAT DAY COMES HE'S GONNA NEED TO STILL HAVE HIS HONDA BACK HOME IN HIS DRIVEWAY. DOES HE LOVE HIS HONDA ANY LESS NOW THAT HE'S DRIVEN ALL THESE OTHER EXOTIC CARS? NO, DOES HE LOOK AT HIS HONDA AND THINK "DAMN, YOU AINT NO MASERATI YOU OLD PIECE OF SHIT" WELL MAYBE... BUT NO LOL. SO YOU SEE AT THE END OF THE DAY HIM DRIVING ALL THOSE OTHER CARS WAS JUST AN EXPERIMENT, BUT GOOD OL FAITHFUL HONDA HAS BEEN THERE ALL ALONG AND WILL CONTINUE TO BE THERE THROUGH THICK AND THIN. AND WHAT THE HONDA DOESN'T KNOW WONT HURT IT!

GIVEN, SOME MEN WILL ALWAYS BE CONTENT WITH THAT HONDA AND WILL TURN DOWN THAT OFFER TO DRIVE THE FERRARI.... BUT LIKE I SAID "SOME MEN"

GET IT?
GOT IT?
WELL THEN GOOD COT DAMMIT!

STAY UP AND STAY TUNED FOLKS!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Pro-Life?

What's Good folks? Let's get right into this one (Pause) lol.

So as you may or may not know I am Pro-Life which means I don't believe in abortions unless its done due to certain circumstances. But as I've gotten older I've come to realize that I can't truly and fully say that I am pro-life until the moment I find myself in the situation where I have to make that choice comes.

So Allow me to take you back to where this topic is coming from. Yesterday afternoon my good friend said this to me after the topic of her son was brought up: "If he were yours I would have Aborted him." Now I know it sounds harsh but I respect it because aside from myself she is the only person who I know keeps it extremely honest each time she opens her mouth. Within reason of course, she doesn't just open her mouth just to hear the sound of her voice. Shout outs to you Love.
So naturally right after hearing that I said "Ouch you would have offed my Seed?" But after thinking about it more carefully I realized that her saying those words were a Gift and a Curse.

So 2 years ago the day where I would have had to make the decision to allow my child to have a life came. But that's the bullet that I dodged because the child in question wasn't mine, and so, on the day that my lil brother turned 16 years old the baby boy that would have been mine was born. Crazy right?

The Gift
So whenever I see pics of the lil man I smile. Smile because I'm happy he was given his God given chance to live, smile because I know he brings his mom happiness, but above all else I Smile because I don't nor did I ever have to worry: "Damn, how am I gonna feed my son? How am I gonna put clothes on his back, food on his high chair and how am I gonna pay his Doctors bills? And How am I gonna explain this to my mom?" I mean of course his mom would've provided for him like she does now, but I would of course had to bring half to the table. So that's the blessing!

The Curse
But of course the fact remains that had he been mine he would have been aborted and I would have never known the answers to my questions like: "Will my first born look like me? Will he realize that I'm gonna die trying to show him that I'm gonna be a better father than my father was? What would have my son made of his life?" I guess in the end there's not much use in asking "What if?" right?

But I would like to let ya know that despite all that was mentioned, don't look at my homegirl and think she is harsh or a bitch or anything like that. I still love her deeply and she was just looking at the situation in the most realistic matter possible. So again, Shout outs to you love.

As for Ya'll Lemme know how ya feel.
Stay Up and Stay Tuned!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Eno's Infinite Playlist

Aight Folks, it's 5:04am, I admit I'm getting a little sleepy but I've got iTunes open and I'm just here zoning out. Now for all of you who follow the blog, by now you know who my first Love is right? That's right... Music!

But doesn't everyone say this? I figured that tonight instead of just telling you I'll explain why I love music so much. After a short version of my explanation I'll give you a few songs that I just heard on my playlist as we speak and give you a lil personal background with that song.

Why I love music so much, at least why I think I love it so much: Aside from me being a huge fan of art and music being a major worldwide form of art, and aside from appreciating the union of sounds and sound words I think I have such a deep and undying connection wit music because my father does.... yea I said it. As a kid I fought for his attention and got very little of it, so I guess somewhere along the line I figured that this could be something to bring us closer simply because it would be one thing we had in common other than DNA. Although slowly but shortly I began to love the sounds I was hearing for myself and not for any other reason or motive. So naturally I began to leave the music my father was listening to (still loved it) and began to research and find my own music. Now ages later I am way more than just a fan of many different genres of music. and I can still honestly say she is my first Love, and as tired as you probably are of hearing me say that I can never get tired of saying it.

On To my current Playlist:
(Around this time the Playlist is usually the same)

'Wait in Vain' - Bob Marley
Like many of the 4651 songs I have I can relate to Mr. Marley's words here. He's speaking to a young lady who he is trying to court and explaining to her that he is interested in her. He lets her know however that although the wait for her love in return (3 years) is no bother he would like for her to know that he is not Waiting in Vain. So pretty much he was saying "Look here baby, i like you and i want this to work, but if your just gonna toy with my emotions then let me know now so I can stop knocking on this door" Now why is it I can relate to all of that? That's a whole new blog post all together. lol.

'All on Me' - Sean Paul Ft. Tami Chynn
Aight now this one (puts a lil smirk on his face) takes me back to yesteryear. So peep game right, the year was 2006 and I was in Honduras for Easter vacation. It was amazing because I had been to Honduras many times before but this time in particular I had went with all my cousins (my closest friends) so it was dope! All we did was party literally each night and sleep all day each day lol. But one night at one of the festivals I had locked eyes with the most beautiful lil Red bone I had ever seen in my life (you know imma sucker for a Light Skinededed young lady) it wasn't long before I worked up the nerve to speak to her and find out more about her, we parted ways that night and I couldn't stop telling my boys about her. the next night at one of the many parties going on I just so happen to bump into her again, we were kinda quite but after we danced a little it was like we knew each other for year. 'All on Me' came on and I was hearing it for the first time ever. It immediately put both of us in a trance. We were so into it that it was as if no one else was on the dancefloor, staring deep into each others eyes like a gay ass romance movie or something lol. Before you know it we were (brace yourselves for the shock) making out on the Dancefloor as the song played! That's right me, Mr. 'I don't like to Kiss' himself lol. Well anyway, the post is not about her and honestly I can fog up your screen if I continue with the story lol. So this song will always have that place in my heart, it gave me memories and made 06 one of my best years!

'They Reminisce Over You (T.R.O.Y)' - Pete Rock & C.L. Smooth
It's gotta be the Horns. As soon as this song starts I'm usually taken back to Circa 1992 -- a beautiful more simpler time in my life I was only 5 but I swear I remember hearing this song at the time, of course back then I had no idea what the song was speaking of but now that I'm older I see what it was about and although it's a sad subject I love it. So I guess like the title says I love this song because when it comes on I Reminisce!

'Iris' - Goo Goo Dolls
I don't remember the first time I heard this song, I don't remember what I was doing, I actually don't remember much of anything while it's playing. It's one of those songs that puts me into another world. I don't know what it was about John Rzeznik voice and lyrics in that song but I know that whenever it comes on I have to play it more than once. In fact even now writing about it to you I don't know what to really say to you. It must be the live instrumentation that does it for me... I don't know but this is a beautiful song.

'She Rockin That thing Like' - The Dream
Anyone who knows me can tell you I don't like The Dream's music, but being a fan of the art all together I have to and can admit when someone has got themselves a good one. Overall I would say the love for this song comes from clubbin. Of course I heard the songs a few times before ever hearing it in the club but I remember when I finally did hear it in the club everyone went ape shit! Til this day, this joint still gets the crowd goin. So like that night whenever I Hear 'Girl I'm in love with you baby, and I want you to know" leave the speakers I have to find me a young lady preferably with a fat backside to dub (grind, inappropriately dance on and behind) on! I know that sound extremely tasteless but it's the God honest truth! Don't ask me why but in the event of this song comin on and me not gettin some cheap feels from the grindin, then the night feels somewhat incomplete.

Well there's a whole bunch more but I'm sure I've entertained/bored you enough with these songs, maybe I'll do a part 2 sometime but for now this is what I have for you guys! Thanks for listening with me, if your anything like me you played the songs while you read the post to accompany the mini passage.

So with all that Said I will now go to sleep, believe it or not it is now 6am, this Post took me 54 minutes to type up. lol

Stay up and Stay Tuned!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Am I a Homophobe?

What's going on Bull Penners? I'm here today with a topic that would have been too in depth to type about (even for me) so I decided to video blog about it. So grab some pop corn and enjoy this 2 part video based around a topic that is touchy and controversial. I mean, is this not why you are here? Is this not what the Bull pen is all about?

Once again I would like to give you my disclaimer:
This video is speaking on Homo Sexuality so if you are weak minded, easily offended or otherwise weak in any possible way, the best thing for you to do would be click the 'x' at the top of your browser and come back another day.
Thanks, and now for our Feature Presentation!

Am I a Homophobe?


Am I a Homophobe? Con't (Part II)


I recorded it in two parts because the video was too high quality to upload to YouTube all in one....
So like I said in the video, feel free to leave comments, send emails, give suggestions etc.

Stay Up and Stay Tuned!!